猫 Superstar

Went to the DMV today and got, yet another, driving permit. I was due to have my DL for years now but I kept in postponing it… I know how to drive… I just don’t know how to park… oh, and I panic… Anyhoo, it got back to me today because when I got my vision test, I FAILED. I couldn’t believe it… I knew my eyes were bad (my ears are worse, my nose are the worst) but I didn’t know it was THAT bad. So yeah…

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I was looking at a very dear friend’s Friendster page the other day and I really missed him. If you think that men and women can’t be “just” friends, you’re mistaken. This man is really, very dear to me. We were friends during high school and he was the nicest person ever. Of all the good friends that I actually had by my side, I was lucky enough to actually notice his existence and not let it pass by. So yeah, I was looking at his friendster and his profile pic was that of him and his girlfriend. I look at the girl and I actually felt happy. You know how moms think that no one is good enough for their kids? Well, I’m like that… but with this girl, I was just happy. =) I looked at her profile & pics and stuff (stalking, no?) and I think that she is quite a character. She looks cool and nice. I think my friend and her fit quite nicely. He talked to me about her a couple of times before and I’m glad that it all worked out for the two of them. I can’t wait to meet her when I get home. I know that we’ll get along… I just know it =) And no, I don’t have that evil grin on my face.

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The point of the story is that I’ve been jealous of my friends whenever I see their pictures all happy and having fun… but for some reason, I wasn’t for this friend. Maybe because I really cherish this person or maybe because I’ve really moved on and matured a bit.

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I got my first copywriting assignment! Yay! (Celebrate with me?) I was working for free though… some kind of an “X-deal.” I work for free on his website content but I get to include the website in my portfolio. Neat, eh?

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I’m done bragging. Jaa!

Happy New Year Everyone! =)

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Earlier today, my mom asked me to get my sister’s hair clips and when I couldn’t find them, I was struck by panic–as always. My mom got upset too–as always. That’s when I realized that old fears never go away. I’M A BAD LOOKER. I really am. When I was younger, everyone used to ask me to look for things for them, especially my mom. Since I rarely find anything fast–if at all, it was either people get upset and in my mom’s case, upset, irritated, and disappointed… Since then, whenever I’m asked to look for something, I feel some sort of panic. I’m 22 but whenever my mom yells at me even for something as trivial as not finding hair clips, I still want to cry like a seven year old girl…

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What do you do when you look in the mirror and you hate the person staring back at you?

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What if your plans for yourself is different from plans of the people you love? Do you choose your own happiness or of your loved ones?

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I am packing up and going far away. Away from America and farther away from the Philippines. Maybe go to a place where no one knows me just so I can be myself… where no one expects me to be something. Just me. Where I don’t have to prove I’m good, that I can support my family, that I’m talented (which I’m not), that I’m smart… I wish that God would give me enough money to buy my parents a house and to send all my three siblings to college so that I can runaway in seclusion from the mostly financial pressures of this life.

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Freelance copywriting is my business now, so if want some copy done, email me. Hahaha… No, really. I need the money to buy my freedom. (http://www.garciawriting.com)

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What do you do when it’s your heart and your conscience that they hold hostage? Your body is free but your situation is much worse than physical bondage? Life sucks. Or so I think… what would a little girl from Sudan or Kenya say to me?